Overcoming the Guilt of Indulging in Self-Enrichment I don't know exactly when it happened. It wasn't a singular moment, I know that. It didn't even dawn on me all at once. It was more like the process of paint fading and cracking so slowly that you don't even see it. Only after passing through the … Continue reading Thou Shalt Not Be Selfish
Developing a Healthy Physical Relationship with the Violin. In my first few weeks of playing, I distinctly remember feeling dizzy and sometimes even a bit nauseous from the strain of standing for long periods of time with my arms held aloft (25 whole minutes), struggling to concentrate on a thousand different things that all felt … Continue reading Not Taking Pain for an Answer
Reconciling Fear and Hope as an Adult Starter Violinist Coming to my first lesson without my son with me was both exciting and sad. I still had deep regret that my son didn't stick with the violin and I let him cut the cord. I had spent two and half months focusing on supporting him … Continue reading Nature vs. Nurture
I had always fantasized about playing an instrument. Anyone who starts something like the violin as an adult would be lying if they said that they never fantasized about what it would be like once they had arrived, musically speaking. Do you see yourself on stage with an orchestra? Around a campfire? At a fiddle … Continue reading Fantasy Life
One really surprising thing that I have discovered through this is that being an adult starter on an instrument isn't actually that strange. More surprisingly, it isn't strange to be an adult violin starter. Which is insane considering that it's arguably the hardest instrument (along with the whole bowed and non fretted string family). I knew it would be hard, and I knew that I was up against something as someone who didn't benefit from any kind of music lessons as a child. So I never thought that there would actually be a tribe of people all over the world who also share this journey given what a feat it sounds like. This makes me want to write in ways that others can discover as opposed to in a diary. (Haha! Writing in a diary after getting home from a violin lesson, that would really make me feel like I'm 12 again). This is un-isolating, which brings so much in itself.
The first blog I started was about my baby. The second blog I started was about my business. This blog is about my art. About my journey into becoming a violinist as an adult. And whatever else I want to write about. Painting. Cooking. Self Indulgent Self Expression. … Continue reading Starting This